Another Week

Turns out Lola was just as excited as Joe and I were to meet Amanda, she kept getting out of bed last night saying "I can't sleep, I'm so excited for my meeting tomorrow!"  We have worked so hard every day to finish everything in such a short amount of time and due to the unfortunate deletion of all our wording in our photo book, we didn't have it all completed today.  After the photo book failed to save everything we typed in, I just had to put my hands up because I am tired of thinking and writing about our family.  I know we are great and all (LOL!), but between re-writing that birth parent letter and worrying about what to say and what not to say, I can actually say I'm ready for this part to be over with.  Don't get me wrong, I have been thoroughly enjoying the adoption process, it is however emotionally draining at times.  Amanda had to reschedule our final visit today and it worked out best for us too because Joe had an unexpected procedure on his throat this morning.  Lola was a bit upset but she will get to have "her meeting" next Friday and hopefully by then I will feel like finishing the photo book.  I only worry that when Amanda sees the photo book, she doesn't like all of what we wrote and it'll be just like the birth parent letter all over again!  Other than that because of this beautiful spring weather and Lola being on spring break, I have had a chance to be outside and play with her and able to give my undivided attention to her and it's been a great break from the list of things to do.  I also have had a chance to sit in the sun and read one of the adoption books I bought, Raising Adopted Children by Lois Ruskai Melina and I have found it very insightful, full of issues that you don't think of, and most helpful.