I think I want my plant back!

Just kidding...

I'm OK!  I know I posted and then went off the radar yesterday, but that is what I needed to do.  Thank you all for your sweet thoughts, many cyber hugs, prayers, and just thinking of us.  It definitely was a hit yesterday on my heart but thankfully I believe so with that I know that there is a baby right for our family and that wasn't it.  Joe surprised me and came home of course he was working, but he was here which was nice. 

I can explain the feeling like this:  I feel as though I went for a fertility treatment...tried...waited for the result...AND... it was negative....  Did that too many times and always the same result!  That's what it feels like...

The bright side...  Our profile was picked out of 15 and we have only been waiting 2 months.  That means we had a good profile.  If we ever have another birth mother meeting, it'll be our second rodeo and at least know a little about what to expect.  We also have more time to raise more money :)

Amanda put it like this "Welcome to the roller coaster".  We just went up and down a hill...