I'm going nuts over here...

I haven't heard anything yet regarding the 3 birth moms and it pretty much is driving me nuts.  This is super duper HARD!!!  I did get an email from the social worker yesterday giving me the low down on the birth mom's.  I got their names, the ethnicity of each one, the gender, due dates, a healthy status and a price tag.  That email pretty much did me in for the rest of the day.  It was totally out of my comfort zone to receive the information in that manner and although I enjoyed getting it, It's hard to explain how it made me feel.  Not to mention that 2 of the women are due in the next 2 weeks.  One is due on 7/20, 7/27 and the third one is due 9/5.  I mean that's next week and I am not at all prepared here.  I guess if anything this is going to kick me into gear to start preparing our home for welcoming our baby.  Also, Joe has been out of town since Saturday and I miss him so much.  I'll get to see him tonight and can't wait.  He explained to me he has the ability to be super excited but also be extremely patient and not be constantly waiting for the call.  I want to be like that, seriously what is that like?  I find myself constantly checking my email, my phone and just waiting for a message.  If anything maybe we'll know something tomorrow or early next week.  I think I'm going to go mosey on through the baby isles at Target and see what I need.  After all I may not be pregnant but I am expecting and it's been five years since I did this.