We are super excited to say the least, among many other feelings! I'm scared - I'm trying to picture how it's going to go and can't. It is so hard to actually see the end even being so close to it. I wonder if our potential BM is going to want to be with the baby at times or not, or if she's going to want to see us with the baby or not, or if the BF is going to be around, is it going to be ackward or not...there are SO MANY things I am wondering but can't actually spend time wondering about because who knows, it's just so different and new.
Joe is getting super excited - I can tell how real it is to him now, knowing a date, having an actual plan and it being right around the corner! He took my mom van to get an oil change, tires rotated and just serviced before our upcoming trip. Just another way we need to be preparing. Thanks to some friends, we have located a place to stay that will be available for the time frame we need which is such a relief to have that in place, thanks guys! Still a lot to figure out but we are moving in the right direction.
We told Lola, that was hilarious. So a week ago or so Joe asked me what I thought we should tell her and I verbatim gave him my opinion, which was to tell her we are working with a BM who is having a boy in a couple weeks, nothing is for sure but it looks like this might be our baby. He thought it sounded great! Well the time came last night for us to share the news and we did but it was hilarious because it did not go as planned. I kept saying words like 'might, possibility, maybe' and he kept giving me this confused look like 'what are you doing?' It was obvious that whatever I was telling him a couple weeks ago was great then but he didn't remember it going the way I remember, (typical marriage), and to him learning the actual planned date of our hopeful babies birthday made it very secure for him to use definite terms. We were completely not on the same page! Needless to say Lola was excited, there is no way to play this down or play it up at this point - it is what it is. Telling her this might be our baby is no different then telling her it is. At least that is what we are experiencing. She does not like the name we've picked though!! She believes she should name him. Ahh...NO!
A little about our specific adoption - we are traveling down the road of becoming a transracial family. We embrace this chapter in our lives, we feel blessed to be given this opportunity to add a child into our hearts, join our family and grow our family. Lola is going to be a wonderful big sister and that aspect we really look forward to. This is such an exciting chapter in our families life and we are almost there!
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