The Unknown...

Isn't this whole process "unknown"?!  As we all grew up we were taught to make responsible choices, get the facts and then make informed decisions, but we are not in charge here.  God is and we can make all the informed decisions we want but the end result is what it is.  Who's to say two healthy parents don't give birth to a sick child, who's to say that bad stuff doesn't happen in this world, it does.  Even when you think you are making all the right decisions with all the right information, trying to do your best, who's to say you're boat isn't going to be rocked from time to time?!  With all that out, we received an email yesterday that rocked out adoption boat, again!  This email not only contained the birth mother's story, it contained the baby's story.  Both are a lot to digest, which we are still digesting.  My initial reaction was to cry, it was one of those days anyway.  The birth mom was not at all healthy during her unknown pregnancy and this baby was born severely premature (11 weeks early).  That causes some complications on you when you were supposed to cook for many more weeks by a healthy individual.  So, Joe and I (not Lola yet) are doing our research, getting as many facts and trying to make an informed decision.  Let's not forget to point out the obvious here but when it comes to making informed decisions, it's hard to categorize an innocent child into this equation.  I mean seriously this baby needs a loving home, parents that are willing to provide this child with all that will be necessary because it's birth mom made some bad decisions.  The entire adoption process as a whole is filled with unknowns.  Actually having a "known", is refreshing to a certain degree.  I'm going to be headed out to the Pediatrician's office to get him to read through some medical records and get a professional's opinion.  A friend of mine forwarded an ultrasound to a neurologist in her family, who might be able to help out.  Stay tuned because depending on what we find out today, we might be headed out tomorrow to bring home a little someone...