Too Quiet...

After learning last Monday that we were not picked, it was like everything became very still.  There was no correspondence from any agency regarding any possible birth mom's being presented with our profile.  It was quiet, too quiet..  I guess that is what we needed in a way to get passed the failed adoption from UT, and we did.  Contrary to some opinions, not knowing anything is just as hard as knowing there is a birth mom looking at our profile.  There are so many avenues of adoption that are different then being pregnant.  Just like a pregnant mom has to add calories to her diet, take vitamins, eat healthy, work at growing a baby and take care off herself; I have to work at finding a birth mom.  A mom that chooses a noble thing such as adoption and feels that our family is a match for her baby, whatever her situation may be.  In this there are so many risks to continually educate yourself about and then either take in faith or walk away.  Some say word of mouth is the best way for adopting.  The more people who know you are wanting to adopt, the more chances someone might know of a women wanting to place her baby for adoption in which a beautiful connection is made.  I have heard of that happening, but I am also relying on these agencies as well.  I don't have an opinion on how it happens, I only pray it does.

We hadn't seen our neighbors since we shared with them that we were matched and they had thought I might have been in UT meeting the birth mom.  So we shared with them the news.  She looked at Lola and said, she is going to be a great only child.  I was like NO, don't say that.  I'm not giving up!  If that is the way our life is to be, then so be it.  Prior to our education on adopting and getting started, we had already excepted that fate; then we decided to adopt.  I'm not ready to throw in the towel.  No-one said this was going to be easy.  I am ready however to reach out to GA and inquire how I went from getting a ton of correspondence to zilch.  I think I already know the answer though, most of the birth moms that were looking at us were with the UT agency and she pulled all her clients from them.  Maybe just maybe this will be a more eventful week...