The phone call was so much more than I could have ever expected. In fact I had NO expectations going into it, I really was wondering when it would be either last night or today. As I was clearing the dinner table last night, I checked my phone and there was a text from the social worker that said 'Guess Who' and then a picture to follow, then the message 'will be calling you after dinner'! Yup, not only did we get their picture but they called us after they all had dinner together. While we were waiting for the phone call, we kept staring at the picture in delight! Then the call came in, I was super nervous and all I can say is that went away quickly and the social worker maybe had 3 sentences throughout a 30 minute or so phone conversation. We all talked so much, we laughed, we all were very grateful to each other not just us to them which totally shocked me, I just wasn't expecting that.
In the beginning while I was educating myself on all the different types of adoptions, reading some adoptions stories and realizing how I would be suited for an open/semi open adoption, I had this idea, a vision of how I hoped it would be for us. Having not walked down this road before it was only an idea, I truly didn't know how it would feel or what my idea would actually be like. Well, so far this situation is unfolding in the way I had hoped for. It actually has a little part of everything I wanted and it feels really wonderful! I was in awe for most of the conversation or smiling and then very sentimental at times and I could tell she was too. They had just for the first time been given our profile book, which they could not have been more excited to look through. They loved our pictures, she acknowledged some of the things that I did as a mom that made her feel excited for her child. I appreciated the acknowledgement, for us moms sometimes don't always feel like the little stuff gets noticed! That made me tear up, she noticed! I didn't want to end the conversation without expressing my deepest gratitude for her situation and their decision and to let them know how amazing this blessing is to us and how grateful we are and they too did the same, that my friends was how our call ended - it was beautiful!!
On a Lola note, Friday afternoon after I picked Joe up from the airport (he was gone all week), she (out of the blue) blurted out 'what if our birth mom changes her mind and wants to raise her own baby?'. Yes she did and Joe was back in the bedroom so I realized, we are both home, now is the time to tell her. I got Joe and told Lola to repeat her question and we told her, she frowned. It was short lived but she was disappointed and probably confused a little, but we told her there will be a baby for us sometime and we just have to wait and pray for it. We have not spoken with her about this new one and probably aren't until we feel it's the right time which will be further down the road. We will be speaking with our potential BM again this Friday afternoon, after her Dr.'s appointment! I'm/we are really excited!! YAY!!
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